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I figured I should update

2006-08-18T18:13:39Z

So here is my outstanding update for the day, I saw snakes on a plane last night and laughed the entire time. I went with a bunch of friends to one of the ten pm showings, and wow, just wow is all I have to say. The whole theater roared when the infamous "i am sick of these mother fuckin snakes" line was said. And then there were a few parts in which snakes were biting people and you knew where and oh god......lets just say at least everyone grabbed ONE privet area because of how much that would FUCKING HURT!!!!

Whew....now that that's out in the open, well today in about two hours I am left home alone for the first time in quite a while. It will be nice but I doubt I will have that much time to relax. I guess my friend Ilana is sleeping over at my house and tomorrow morning at Seven Am I get to start work until 1Pm. After getting off of work I get to go down to the glorious Ren Fest for a few hours then we go somewhere and do something then we get to go to Rocky and then...I'm not sure what we are doing after that since a Basement party is not happenin for I have no escort....Since I guess.....people like to touch there...little bastards....anyways.

Ok so this is a pretty long journal for me, this is good um well ...ok thats it i'm outta ideas...enjoy..

Hopes....

2006-08-14T05:49:34Z

One would think that a person with my experiance would get used to not having high hopes when it comes to romance. In the long list of people who I have seemed to developed any kind of feelings for, only one boy seemed to share them back, and that was ....just odd I suppose. So one would assume that I already know what is going to happen, yet this time I again didn't seem to learn the lesson.....and I fell again.

This is the reason I liked not being single, not having to worry about people liking eachother because I already had someone who even though I didn't like him as much as he liked me....he seemed to only have eyes for me. Not the case with other people in which now I have learned that the boy I like seems to have moved on.....and again....not taken a second glance towards me.... I do'nt know what to really think of it but....oh well I suppose.......maybe there is another that I can hopefully find soon.

I Know Now......

2006-08-05T00:28:22Z

I try to be selfish for the first time in my life, well....one of the first times...and then I find out that instead I made my best friend hate herself because of it. What am I supposed to think?

It all started a few days ago when she told a guy who she said she didn't really like that she had a boyfriend, which was almost true by how interested this other guy is in her. We both knew he was crushed but she acted like she didn't really feel as bad as I thought she was....now I know the truth. Instead of telling me the honest answer it turns out that she did like the boy more then she said she did...just liked two others more. She crushed him even though she didn't want to for a chance to be with him in the future judging how we both know....he wants her and not me. So instead of telling me this, I read it on this website.....and now she is gone for nine days and I'm stuck with no communication to her. How am I supposed to feel about all of this? Why did I finally take someones advice and be selfish and think that it could work just one time...instead I hurt one of my three best friends in the process...I hate myself at this moment.....

Hello

2006-08-04T18:44:25Z

Alright this is my amazing first journal,

Well I suppose it's not really that amazing but basically just to warn everyone out there this shall probably be used when I need to let off alot of steam that I can't do on other sites. Now that we have that all cleared up, people should be my friends like Ted....and Missa...I shall hunt you down :)